I have so many mixed feeling about the juniors coming today. At first I was so excited.. It then turned into anxiety.. I don't know what to feel now. I'm freaking out. I'm afraid that the juniors won't be friendly, or hardworking, or committed to band. I don't understand this feeling. I don't understand it at all.

Ok, Now I will dedicate this part of the post to seniors who are dear to my heart who've I just spent 1 year with.
My Seniors: Elizabeth, Yvonne, Oliver, Ying Ying, Daniel..

Darling seniors:

Elizabeth- Elizabeth, this past year I've spent with you has been extremely rewarding. Since the time which I joined the Flute Section till now. When I was still playing the Flute, I initially was extremely afraid of you, keeping a distance from you. After a while I got used to the way you taught me how to play the Flute. I enjoyed the whole time I've spent with you. Being an oboist has encouraged me to work harder because I wanted you to be proud of me. I don't want you to graduate! I will miss you so much.. ELIZABETH!!!

Yvonne- Yvonne, I might not know you very well, but you are indeed a great senior and section leader. I initially wanted you to teach me instead of Elizabeth because I thought she was scary. Although I changed my mind in the end, you are still a fantastic and wonderful person. Being an oboist has encouraged me to work harder because I wanted you to be proud of me. I admire you for who you are. Small is powerful! I don't want you to leave Flute section. I will definitely miss you a lot! I love you YVONNE!

Oliver- Oliver, what can I say.. You've always been a role model to me. You play the Flute so well although you're only sec 3. I guess you've always reminded me of being all that I can be and performing to the best of my abilities. I will definitely also admire the fact that you're the only boy in Flute section. haha. That is going to change soon. I find the whole point of you as my Flute 2 senior, teaching me and guiding me. I really enjoy your company. Thanks for the fun and laughter. I will never forget the name OLIVER!

Ying Ying- Ying Ying, I know it's a great responsibility for you as my oboe senior. I knew that you never wanted a junior because you always wanted Wei Ning to be your senior. Nothing is fair in life. In the whole Flute section, besides Lorraine and Lixin, I treasure you the most. You are the only other oboist in the band and it's hard to teach someone who learns so slowly. I think that I've made life hard for you. I hope that for this you will forgive me. I miss Wei Ning as much as you do. You're the senior who's closest to me. And I appreciate your being in Flute section, although you are a little uncomfortable, and caring for me. I will look forward to the day you pursue your dream. No matter what it is. Be confident in all you do. You often do a good job, but fail to realise that we all appreciate it. I will always put you in my heart as a great senior.. Maybe next time there'll be a book... My Great Senior YING YING!

Daniel- Daniel, you have been like a brother and encourager. You always tell me that I'm being appreciated by the band, just by being here and I really appreciate it. I'm sorry to constantly pester you at night. You, as a brother, are a great one. I want to play as well as you and to persue my dream as an oboist. I belive that with your constant reminders and compliments, I will go far. I'll miss you when you graduate. Don't leave BVCB!!! Thanks a lot DANIEL!

I love all of you. You all are special to me in a way that is extremely indescribable. All of you mean a lot to me and I wouldn't want to lose any of you. I love all of you. .


Humbled at 7:47 pm

Sometimes I just wonder why.. I mean what We as humans are in this world to do. Are we here to rule over animals? To praise God? To love and respect others? Why? Sometimes you question this sort of things, I do a lot of the time. And personally I feel that .. Nobody can answer our questions better than ourselves. I felt like giving up many many many times. But thanks to Sk,Evelyn,Pei Ying, Haw Yuh, Daniel and others I didn't give up completely. What we do in our lives are the meaning we're here. We can be here to set an example to people in the things we do, say and even in our appearance. Everything counts.

Look at yourself, have you performed to the best of your ability at everything? I know I haven't. And the sad truth is.. None of us have. We always get caught up in other things like personal pleasures and interests, and we forget the right thing to do. If you can truthfully say that you've done everything in your life to the best of your ability, please tag my blog/ appraoch me. I'll be more than happy to hear your life story. Why do we deceive ourselves as well as others? Because we cannot face the facts.

Nobody is perfect. Nobody has never sinned.We were all born with sin. So there is nothing to hide. Do not be ashamed of the right things you've done, but be ashamed of your lies and wrong acts. you will find out that it is always better to live with what you have. Ask and you will be given. Repent, and you will be forgiven. Why don't we all try to change? Not all of us need to change. We don't have to change too much. Just try to work harder all the time. That's already a change.

I think that doing all these things will definitely have a positive effect on us.
I'm sorry if my post is offensive in any way.


Humbled at 4:56 pm